ok....its been fucking long since i updated....during these period alot of things haf happen. some of dem is good while some are bad...
recently i had prob wif my family n oso wif my cayang...i almost wanted to kill myself coz i reali cant take it. i was like nobody nemore...but now..everything has been ok wif my family. we settle our prob...everything been good in d house. but den...haiz...bout my cayang..it hasn't end...i dunnoe how long will it take to settle. u all want to noe wats d prob huh? well its like dis...recently she told me she not sure bout her feeling. she doesn't noe whether she love me...haiz...i felt so down after hearing dat, till now..im still not ok...even though its like dat, i keep giving my love to her n try to win her heart. but sometimes, i think its no use. it feel sucks when u gif d person ur love but den she nvr reply ur love...haiz..... she was my strength in my life. now....she like didn't tok much to me..tok to me onli wanted somthing from me...other than dat, she doesn't even msn me...dun say msn...chat on d fon oso nvr. its been 1 wk since i last saw her n tok on d fon. i feel as though she dun even miz me...im like nobody to her nemore. every nite i slp fucking late bcoz thinking of her. guess wad time i slp...i slp at 5 am everyday. my eyes are getting swollen day by day. haiz....does she even miz me...i miz her so much seh...damn! im crying now....fuck lah! some of my fren told me im stubborn...dey say if she nt sure bout her feeling, juz leave her...but den i love her so much!! i dun wanna lose her.... i reali wanna to b wif her till i die...if onlie she noes d pain dat inside me.... cayang!!!!! i love u s0o much!!! plz dun eva leave me!!!!!! haiz....y always d gal which i love so much always had to do dis to me...has to hurt me.....why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope d past wont repeat again...if it does, den i will start like my past characteristic......god...i need ur help.....guyz..u all noe..everytime after pray, i pray to god dat my cayang will start loving me back....haiz.......
dis yr my christmas wish is juz want her to love me back..dats all i ask.....
cayang....if u read dis, i juz wanna sae dis to you dat i miz u....i miz ur kiss n hugs..i miz d way u hold my hand..i miz ur smile..i miz u saying i love u...i miz everything bout u.......i miz ur love most.....i reali miz ur love....haiz... cayang...i love u s0o0 much!!!...muackz2!!!
